Every day is a struggle when

It amazes me how one day I can feel so much energy, direction and passion. Then next it is gone.... and I'm left wondering where it all went.

What I have learned, which hasn't exactly helped me fix it, is that we have a huge reservoir of feeling and emotions that are in our unconscious. Unexposed, even to ourselves, these belief-driven responses-to-our-lives are buried under a protective layer of logic and conscious decisions. That is mostly a good thing, as that cauldron can best be described as infantile, extreme, and a danger to the constructs of our lives. If the beliefs of our conscious mind could be called logical.... the beliefs of our unconscious minds could best be described as experiential...based on experiences. Though they are experiential and buried, they have a huge impact on us.

This impact is what I described at the beginning of this post.

So, it is impacting my life in a negative way. It is impacting my ability to work, earn a living, maintain friendships, and share what I have learned in my life. Oh, I can give you a million stories (experiences) justifying the wicked brew in my unconscious. I can even pretend it isn't there, or that I have found it's Antidote. But I haven't yet.

Here is my big old But...I believe that God does not waste a thing. And I believe that this journey I am on will benefit others. I believe I am not alone. So I am going to report on this journey of discovery that I am on. Regardless of the outcome, the journey will not be waisted. There is much to learn... there is much I have learned... and there is much I can learn from others.

Join me?