Every day is a struggle when

It amazes me how one day I can feel so much energy, direction and passion. Then next it is gone.... and I'm left wondering where it all went.

What I have learned, which hasn't exactly helped me fix it, is that we have a huge reservoir of feeling and emotions that are in our unconscious. Unexposed, even to ourselves, these belief-driven responses-to-our-lives are buried under a protective layer of logic and conscious decisions. That is mostly a good thing, as that cauldron can best be described as infantile, extreme, and a danger to the constructs of our lives. If the beliefs of our conscious mind could be called logical.... the beliefs of our unconscious minds could best be described as experiential...based on experiences. Though they are experiential and buried, they have a huge impact on us.

This impact is what I described at the beginning of this post.

So, it is impacting my life in a negative way. It is impacting my ability to work, earn a living, maintain friendships, and share what I have learned in my life. Oh, I can give you a million stories (experiences) justifying the wicked brew in my unconscious. I can even pretend it isn't there, or that I have found it's Antidote. But I haven't yet.

Here is my big old But...I believe that God does not waste a thing. And I believe that this journey I am on will benefit others. I believe I am not alone. So I am going to report on this journey of discovery that I am on. Regardless of the outcome, the journey will not be waisted. There is much to learn... there is much I have learned... and there is much I can learn from others.

Join me?

It can't work

There are things that shape us. Things we believe. Things that define what happens to us. They are ... what we believe.

Tragically, there are two different types of belief. The logical, thoughtful beliefs, and beliefs based on experiences. The logical is always in our conscious mind. It is how we have made sense of the many events we have seen. They are what we use to make announcable decisions. As you will learn, they are the weaker of the two. The powerhouse, the experiential beliefs, rarely overtly show themselves. They are fed by a the unconscious soup of our past. There is evidence of them all over our lives. The best way to become aware of them is to see their effects. They are usually different than our logical beliefs, so they have been hidden by our mind. The Bible calls it your heart. The shrinks call it your unconscious. But every time we act irrationally, every time our walk is different than our talk, it is because of these experiential beliefs.

So, we are divided. Divided because of the profound difference between the our logical and experiential beliefs.

Can we work out the differences? Is there any reason to? What is the impact of this dividedness? Is this simply excessive navel-gazing? Why has the mind hidden so much? Were we created this way? Shouldn't we leave" well enough" alone? Can't we just force ourselves?

So many more questions. So many lies that we accept as truth. Lies like the title... Why does it sound so true?

Waste Not a Thing